Past regret causing chronic depression?

is death the answer? no. we all have hung out with sbags. that doesn't make me one. some of us have even hung out with drag queens. that doesn't make them one. others people issues are not your. you are making them yours. OCD that is what is going on with you. the fact that you no this but can't control it makes you brilliant. you will Crush a lot of people if you end it. it sounds like you have that illness where you have and unreasonable fear of germs. get some help please. death is not the answer.